Love you Dad. Rest In Peace...
I'll see you again...
I was cleaning today and I found a picture of you, you and your big smile
It caused all these memories and emotions to stir,
Visions of the times we shared, good and bad ones too.
Then there were the ones from the day my life was ripped apart.
And the tears came rolling down,
I can still remember the sound of my breaking heart,
And how it felt, it hurt so damn bad.
As mom told me outside those dredful doors,
That you were not coming back, you had gone away.
I cried a million tears that day,
It was a dream gone bad,
It had me asking God how could he do me this way,
Why would He want to make me so sad?
Of all the people in the world why were you His choice?
I wish I could have told Him first that I needed you too,
If only I could hear the sound of your voice,
Calling my name, saying hello or even I love you.
I wonder if He thought of how I’d feel,
I know I’m told He always picks the best,
I’m also told in time my heart will heal,
But why you above the rest?
Didn’t He know what we’d been through,
That we needed to get it together again,
I knew you loved me and much as I loved you,
If you would have only said it out loud,
I could almost say “That’s my dad he’s such a great man, and I hope I make him proud”.
Daddy I hope you know I only wanted you to be proud,
Daddy’s girl is what I wanted to be,
Maybe things would have been different for you and I,
But now I’ll never know.
You weren’t the only one at fault, I know I was too.
Always doing everything wrong,
And then saying I was taking after you,
Why did it take us so long, until you were sadly gone?
To figure out,
That I was your little girl,
And without a doubt,
You were my entire world.
Now you are in my wind, water and heart, and that will never part.
I miss you more every day; some days harder than others, but that’s okay.
The pictures of the memories are all I have now,
I cherish them more than anyone will ever know,
Someday, I don’t know when or how,
We will meet face to face,
And I will see you, and I'll even hug you too.
And we will share your special place,
And maybe, just maybe I can hear the words “I love you too.”
Looking through my letters yesterday and I found this.. I posted it on Xanga over a year ago.