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Thursday, December 11, 2008

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 03:12:27 GMT

Wow, what a long time that has gone by since I have blogged in here.

I remember when Xanga was the shit, not Myspace and Facebook have taken over the whole world. haha.

Things with me are going good. I am moving to FL in less than 20 days. Wow, I am nervous but so excited at the same time. :o)

There is this boy...

But nothing will ever happen with all that.

And this other boy..

He is just a loser...What the hell was I thinking?

Packing up my room is sad. But it is the beginning of an old ending...If that made any sense?

Love life, regret nothing.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 20:09:57 GMT

I got Shane into a lot of trouble...

Hopefully we can find a way out of it.

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 13:04:59 GMT

I'm buying a pole............

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:33:19 GMT

Happy Fathers Day to all you fathers out there

Love you Dad. Rest In Peace...

I'll see you again...

Someday

Letter To My Father

I was cleaning today and I found a picture of you, you and your big smile
It caused all these memories and emotions to stir,
Visions of the times we shared, good and bad ones too.
Then there were the ones from the day my life was ripped apart.

And the tears came rolling down,
I can still remember the sound of my breaking heart,

And how it felt, it hurt so damn bad.
As mom told me outside those dredful doors,

That you were not coming back, you had gone away.

I cried a million tears that day,

It was a dream gone bad,

It had me asking God how could he do me this way,

Why would He want to make me so sad?

Of all the people in the world why were you His choice?

I wish I could have told Him first that I needed you too,
If only I could hear the sound of your voice,

Calling my name, saying hello or even I love you.
I wonder if He thought of how I’d feel,
I know I’m told He always picks the best,
I’m also told in time my heart will heal,
But why you above the rest?
Didn’t He know what we’d been through,
That we needed to get it together again,
I knew you loved me and much as I loved you,

If you would have only said it out loud,

I could almost say “That’s my dad he’s such a great man, and I hope I make him proud”.
Daddy I hope you know I only wanted you to be proud,
Daddy’s girl is what I wanted to be,
Maybe things would have been different for you and I,

But now I’ll never know.
You weren’t the only one at fault, I know I was too.
Always doing everything wrong,
And then saying I was taking after you,
Why did it take us so long, until you were sadly gone?
To figure out,
That I was your little girl,
And without a doubt,
You were my entire world.

Now you are in my wind, water and heart, and that will never part.
I miss you more every day; some days harder than others, but that’s okay.
The pictures of the memories are all I have now,
I cherish them more than anyone will ever know,
Someday, I don’t know when or how,
We will meet face to face,
And I will see you, and I'll even hug you too.
And we will share your special place,
And maybe, just maybe I can hear the words “I love you too.”

Looking through my letters yesterday and I found this.. I posted it on Xanga over a year ago.

<3 Ashley Rose

Monday, June 11, 2007

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 16:33:09 GMT

Couldn't say things are bad...because there not.

Everything is going well. I'm sitting for 4 children over the summer, it's fun. goona look for a part time waitressing job for some extra cash. Yeah it will be fun.

Later,

Ash

Friday, May 25, 2007

Fri, 25 May 2007 01:39:35 GMT

I got two new bathingsuits they are awesome! Excited to get them in the mail! Also excited for my trip in december for 20 days to hawaii! Jel? I know. Haha.

Things are good.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tue, 08 May 2007 15:54:57 GMT

Sometimes I don't understand how someone who cares about you so much can hurt your feelings so bad. It amazes me how people can be so cruel. It is so disheartining.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tue, 08 May 2007 15:54:56 GMT

Sometimes I don't understand how someone who cares about you so much can hurt your feelings so bad. It amazes me how people can be so cruel. It is so disheartining.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tue, 08 May 2007 03:05:58 GMT

Things are going good. On the hunt for a part time job or something. Hopefully I'll be babysitting for the 4 girls for the summer. Then I'll go to work full time somewhere. Or maybe school. I don't know. I'm so indecisive. Ohh well! Something will eventually go my way!

Monday, April 30, 2007

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 21:31:11 GMT

Excited. Got the trip booked! Instead of doing the cruise to hawaii we are just going to stay there for 16 days. Can't wait. Well. Gotta go ttyl!